About Me - Clenda Moen B.V.

ABOUT CLENDA

I am a woman, a writer, earthbound and spiritual, a hermit and a connector, but above all I am human

Hi, how nice to have you here. My name is Clenda, but most people call me “Clen.” In addition to being a woman, a writer, a grounded, spiritual, a hermit, a socialite, and above all, a human being, I’m also an entrepreneur, love to sing, am creative, love developing new things, and love making something out of nothing.

According to Human Design, I’m a 2/4 sacral generator, and my astrological chart primarily describes me as free and earthy. I have seven Capricorn placements that, among other things, present me as earthy and free and ambitious.

From the perspective of Human Design, I’m a “quad right.” This means that all four arrows in your design around your head point to the right. While the world is based on arrows pointing to the left. I felt different. This was clear from an early age.

I felt alone. Lonely. I felt like no one understood me.

I want to take you back to my teenage years

What do you get?

A time marked by inner struggles. Many battles with my critical voice. With my inner child, and with my body. I wasn’t good enough, not slim enough, and thought I wasn’t worthy of pursuing my dreams. 

I didn’t listen to my body’s message and forced myself to always persevere and prove I could do it. I was incredibly hard on myself and constantly judged myself. 

In 2011, I was living in Curaçao, and on December 5th, the ground seemed to give way beneath me. Out of nowhere, I completely collapsed and didn’t know what was happening. I discovered I had been bitten by a mosquito, called dengue.

It was a fight for life with repercussions that lingered for years. Fear and control took over. I didn’t trust my body, I didn’t trust myself, and I no longer trusted life. My recovery was difficult, but it was very rewarding. I went through a mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual transformation simultaneously. I became increasingly aware, but I also longed for myself incredibly much. 

In 2016, I experienced dengue again, and in 2011, I felt like déjà vu. Where I had previously seen myself as a victim of the dengue mosquito and of life, I now finally “understood” why it had happened. 

I saw that my outer world was a reflection of my inner world. I had heard this proverbial wisdom so many times, but only now did I understand its true meaning. I discovered that the only place to resolve my struggles was within.  I was too exhausted to move on, but instead of just training my legs, I started training my mind as well. I turned inward. I did a lot of inner work, healing unresolved pain points, transforming my beliefs, and breaking patterns.  I took what worked for me.

So much unfolded in my highest potential.

AS WITHIN, SO WITHOUT

My life began to look completely different. Things I never expected to be possible began to become reality. I could walk again. My health returned. I could create again and started my own business. Step by step, I began to trust myself again and felt who I was deep down inside. Who I truly am. More and more flow came into my life, and it felt as if I was blossoming from the mud like a lotus.

I returned to myself. To my core. To my essence. Self-hatred gradually turned into self-love. Control became trust. Fear gradually turned into love. 

I’m now doing what I love most, and as a 2/4 sacral generator, I thrive on it.

The question I regularly get is: Do you never have a bad day? Of course, I also have days when I’m less in the flow, everything feels “bleh,” and I judge myself.

It’s not just light and love. Light cannot exist without darkness. We grow in pain, find gold in the dark, and shift in crises. 

Only now I know how to deal with it. And that’s where I’d love to support you.

Let me share a few random fun facts with you:

I love singing, dancing, the beach, Ibiza, writing, creating, and I love being with the people I love. But I also love being a hermit. And this hermit attitude is something I enjoy from time to time. I find it so wonderful to be alone. To immerse myself in my own development and processes. I really “need” to be drawn outward. Otherwise, I’ll just sit in this bubble for a very long time. And once I’m outside and among people, I blossom completely. Something with a two-quarter profile.

I grew up with drag racing and motocross. I loved racing around on my Piwi and quad. Camping in a pasture among the cow grazes and taking my toilet paper roll to a porta potty. Okay, photos will tell you a bit about me.

I’ve been sleeping with two cuddles pretty much my entire life. One is named Haya, the other Busa. My favorite motorcycle used to be a Hayabusa. They’re named after that.

I often get the most inspiration at night. I can be a huge night owl and find the silence of the night so wonderful. I can write and create for hours with Fia music in the background. Three guesses when I wrote this text.

I’ve helped a few people quite often (as I was literally told: “You helped me with the ginger, Clen”). It started 10 years ago during festivals, where I always brought fresh pieces of ginger.

I can still see the security guards looking at me as they searched my bag.

Oh yeah, and my trainer always says that I start speaking with a sort of Amsterdam accent when my workout gets too hard. And he’s probably right. Because I love speaking with accents. Who’s with me? But why do I do that when my workout gets too hard? It’s a mystery to me.

I have a (language) dictionary full of names that I often “spoke too quickly.” The words that are used most often—and now also by others—are: moscroter, kuistersontje, slappetemko, merk, and vos. I would really like to do something with this (language) dictionary someday.

MY DESIGN

I love new projects, beautiful houses, and beautiful interiors. When my boyfriend and I go for walks, we often discuss the details of the houses we pass. We can chat about it for hours. My boyfriend and I have been together for ten years, and we had three online shops together: two in the Netherlands and one in Poland. Financially, this was very attractive, but over time, neither of us became interested in it anymore. We had built an entire team around us, but ultimately, we sold the online shops.

Together, we’ve now purchased two properties in Valencia to renovate into two beautiful apartments. If you know Valencia, one apartment is right above the river, and the other is a five-minute walk from the harbor. Something with entrepreneurship, a sense of adventure, and the desire to make something out of nothing.

Did I find it exciting to start with it? Absolutely. Did I have to overcome ten thousand hurdles and a chattering Ellenda (that’s the name of my ego, my inner critic)? The answer is also a very clear HELL YES . Four years ago, I wouldn’t have even dared to make this decision, but now I’m choosing it. I’m choosing the life I want to live, and I’m increasingly choosing out of love.

I'm aware that I sometimes make myself smaller than I am. The feeling "I'm not good enough" has been locked away for so long that during phases when I feel less well or experience triggers, it can take over. At some point, I don't dare to go any further and I hold myself by the handbrake. Imagine: everything is going well. That's something I didn't know from my youth and when I was ill. I felt safer when something was going on. In this way, I unconsciously turned unsafe situations into safe situations within myself. And vice versa: Safe situations sometimes felt unsafe because they were so unfamiliar.

I believe that we all have dark sides. And it is precisely in these dark sides that your greatest gold lies.

Furthermore, I think it’s important not just to absorb information, but also to do something with it. To take the space to integrate it, and then embody it. To be dependent on nothing or no one. Not on this one book, this one teacher, but only on yourself. To trust yourself.

I’ve now guided hundreds of people through Human Design readings, retreats, and my Human Design course. And ohhhhh, I’m currently hard at work on my next new projects, which will be coming soon.

I’ll guide you in reconnecting with yourself. To also change your outer world by enriching and redesigning your inner world (that interior design is coming back a little bit ).

We will design your interior your way, based on your design .

I’m a proponent of “real connection.” Human connection. Where you feel there’s some soul in it. Want to connect with me? Send me a message.